Counseling - I graduated from counseling. I've been seeing Tiffany Smith since September of 2011. With her help, I have had the courage to look at me and like me. In that process, I began to like those around me, namely my husband and my kids. I loved them and took care of them, but I like them now LIKE them. I find them funny and interesting and want to get to know them, not just take care of them and feed them.
Tiffany guided me to find my own confidence that I had let go of and found myself too. I began to like me and be willing to look at me and be willing to face me in the mirror. Counseling has changed my life from this point forward. It did not change my past, it did not erase my past. I gained skills to let it go and remain in the past. It is and was as if the past was the big white elephant in the room. So I turned and looked at the elephant and faced it and touched it and hugged it. Finally I was able to look away from it, and most importantly, move on. There is so much more to me than my white elephant that used to follow me around everywhere i went. Well i followed me because i had it on a leash - I took it everywhere i went. I finally learned how to open my hand and let go of the leash. I am free from my past. It is still there and it is still mine, but I'm free.
I used my self confidence to look up from seeing the numbers on the scale and only on myself. Once I looked up from the scale and my feet, life suddenly had so much to offer that I'd been missing and suddenly when I quit looking at myself, it was no longer about me but the world around me and my loved ones.
If I change how I think, I can change how I feel
if I change who i feel, I will change how I see the world around me.
